I’m not even sure where I left on these. Needless to say, I haven’t been doing so great. My commutes have still been silent but I’ve checked facebook a few times. There you have it World. Full confession. One night in particular stands out. I made a bad choice which then led my thoughts to spiral out of control . I decided to just call it a night and head to bed. The next morning I woke up and spent a few minutes reading Jesus Calling. If you haven’t heard of this devotional, I’d highly recommend it. It’s been huge in my walk with Christ. Anyways. The next day as I was reading, the first line was “don’t rush my blessing.” It hit right where it needed to hit. If I hadn’t made that bad choice, I wouldn’t have had the interaction that I did, and I wouldn’t have been crazy ;). At the end of the day, I’m still a crazy girl with a silly brain. The LORD has been so faithful about showing up in the midst of my silence. It’s been refreshing and eye opening. I’m excited to see what He continues to do.
The last few weeks I’ve noticed an increase in attacks. Attacks on things I thought were settled, lies whose voices I silenced long ago, arrows aimed at the deepest part of my heart. All of it. Not just on me but aimed at those I love as well. It’s been rough. We’ve all been pulling each other through the trenches. Hoping to stay alive. I have a feeling this is in direct proportion to the proximity of my trip to Africa. Y’all I leave in 6 sleeps. One week from right now I’ll be about to board a plane in Atlanta for a 16 hour flight to Johannesburg. I can’t believe it’s here. The things on my checklist are slowly being crossed off and I’ve already started writing the playlist to my trip in my head. When Brooke Fraser’s song “Albertine” first came out, I knew that one day I would listen to it as I was flying over the ocean to Africa. And that day is almost here. I can’t believe it. I can’t believe it’s almost time to go. Have I thanked you all lately? Those of you who have been praying for me, those that gave so generously that I was OVER the amount I needed, those that have encouraged me and asked me questions? For being a lover of words, I don’t know that I have enough words to express how grateful that you all have made this dream come true. I am truly humbled and awed at the out pouring of love. I can’t wait to tell the stories of Africa. I’ll try to write a few more blogs before I leave and when I’m over there. I’m not sure what sort of internet access I’ll have but I want to keep you updated.
Is there any music that is an absolute MUST for my flight over or back? I’d love to hear suggestions.